Honestly, I'm seriously just throwing my time away. Maybe the term "throwing" isn't appropriate, but I feel like I'm not utilizing my time the way I originally want it to be. Do I regret it, and will I in the future? No, probably not. I'm always in the process of self discovery; and if it means always being unsure and waiting to see what happens, then at least I'll be learning more about what I want and what my tolerances are; what works, and what doesn't. Granted, I'm digging myself a grave if situations don't go smoothly, but I think... I'm accepting the possibility that it may just so happen.