To be frank, I've been running lately to run away from my thoughts that have been bothering me. During these moments, I am always desperate to obtain that high where you feel like you can run on forever. I've been noticing that the bigger of an internal conflict, the farther the distance. But no matter how far I run away, I end up more conflicted within myself. The day where I hit 14 miles in one shot after a long period of no training--that day, I felt like I was stuck between a rock and hard place and absolutely had to release that tension somewhere. I couldn't stop thinking about it.
And I still can't. Because I still don't know how to.