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Promenading on the Fine Line

Friday, July 21, 2017 @ 5:34 PM
A midnight walk.

Walking alone down the empty city streets in a warm night with a light jacket covering your shoulders, under the bright moon and the twinkling, clear stars, the path illuminated by the remaining city lights and yellow lamps that send chills down my spine, with the perfect, slow beats playing from my earbuds accompanying the quiet walk home... I close my eyes, my body dissipates and then I become one with the quietness around me.

it's easily my 2nd favorite feeling in the world. Rarely do I ever get to experience this feeling, however, because of the entire safety mentality, but when I'm liberated from those worries, the moon and quiet night comforts me in its wholesomeness; I like to sit somewhere comfortable and begin to soak in how wonderful and beautiful the world is. I have a hard time describing such a feeling, but it's always such a pleasure to be in such a touching moment.

So what's the 1st? Well... it's


@ 1:05 AM
Little dumpling.

"I always eat very well whenever I'm with you."

Life can't get any more perfect. ♥


Tuesday, July 11, 2017 @ 1:20 AM

A large, beautiful, white crystal geode was gifted to me today, to my pleasant surprise. With it, came with the note:

you are crystal

placed along the way

lighting the path
for those with less fortune

let your light shine
as it will guide the way

for All

who is no other than you
one light is all lights
hence the multitude

of reflections

in a crystal geode

No one has ever written me a poem before; needless to say, I was touched very deeply. I have a soft spot for writers, so in response I blushed and admired the sparkling beauty within the crystal along with the personal meaning it carries.



Sunday, July 9, 2017 @ 8:00 PM

He shifted in front of me, and with his hands on top of my shoulders, our gaze locked on very tightly for a tender moment and he spoke with confidence, "Lenna, your eyes have brightened up since the last time I saw you. How? Did you find a lover?" he jokingly asked after such a serious setup.

"Yes, I did; me."

"Ah, so I see. You are loving yourself, and then you will learn how to give love to others."



Tuesday, July 4, 2017 @ 5:02 PM

Okay, well, there goes my recollection of images embedded in my blog posts, heh. Photobucket's greed took over and is now charging $399 for image linking in a 3rd party website (such as this). I moved to imgur instead, but still, they also don't like image linking... ho hum. Well, please ignore how ugly the sign is in the older entries, oops.

Anyways, I finally found a time to reflect a bit! I spent 2 weeks at home with no social media (I deleted my IG, Snapchat, Facebook, etc.) and put my phone on silent so I returned messages when I actually designated time to. It was possibly one of the best feelings ever--being so disconnected and independent of social media and spending time solely to myself without constant distractions, doing what I want, when I want, however I want, and planning the things I want to do for myself, without the stressors of others (not saying everyone is stressing me out--I just normally worry about other people all the time so I tend to get a bit overwhelmed!!)

I've gotten better about exercising, and found my dedicated exercising buddies. Thanks R, C, & A for sticking with me for that #summergoals, and for cooking dinner/feeding me. I've done a few days of P90x3 and some cardio kickboxing and ran around the Berkeley Marina a few times, and I also invested in some resistance bands to tone up my muscles at home (although I am aware that nothing can replace weight lifting).

I've started studying for my OAT with a Kaplan course at school, and had a friend from my post-bacc surprise-visit me. I'm heading out to Seattle soon to see my waifu, and my little prince (Jiji) finally came back home (I officially signed the adoption papers!!). I got into another art gallery and my piece will be auctioned off! I also am planning a short and sweet trip to socal to show my friends the amazing art and museums socal has to offer :3

Logistics aside, I've been feeling a lot better about myself. I've been reading a lot, and I'm slowly learning how to fully love again. Maybe it's all the exercising and the serotonin that's being released, but my nostalgia is slowly turning into cherishing memories. I can finally walk through memory lane without the path suddenly turning so dark and bleak. I can talk to others a bit more freely with a more willing heart, but one thing is for certain: I'm enjoying this independence as of late; albeit really late into the game, I think I finally found a rhythm I can jam with.


Sunday, June 25, 2017 @ 8:54 PM

You are so unbelievably disgusting. I thought I had left that greek life behind me when he & I ended things, but I can't believe you (and those fuckboys) reentered the scene out of all places and started to try things with me, even after what we went through when I used to see your pledge brother.

Don't you dare fcking touch me again, or else your hand will feel so much more than just the skin you're touching.


Saturday, June 24, 2017 @ 10:49 PM

Thanks for joining me in a wholesome night of debauchery and then trying to wake my drunk ass self up for work ;P